Five.

Lucky number 5!

Yeay. I'm finally blogging with my laptop because I didn't get the chance to go online this past week. I'm  counting down the days till I go back home.. thus, the title of this post. But before I can think about what i'm going to do when I get back, I have to sit for my mid semester exams. Which ironically is 5 papers as well. Good luck to me I guess. I've been stressing out lately about how i'm going to do for my exams, especially for the calculations. There's nothing I can do about it but study and hope for the best. The rest will be up to fate. HA.

Enough about my studies.


My best friend is leaving for Kuala Lumpur and I don't know what to feel about that. I should be happy that he's finally getting out of his comfort zone and trying something new (haha) but I am going to miss him when he leaves because I won't get to meet him when i'm back. On the other hand.. there are some perks of him going there 'cause he can be my personal shopper and help me buy things ;) Sounds good. But that doesn't change the fact that i'm sad because you're leaving, Hafreez Amminuddin. I wish you all the best with your new life and undertakings  in the big city. And.. I know you can make friends easily but don't you ever think of replacing me! Though I am too special to you so it won't be easy for you to replace me. I HOPE. And you better be making money, not spending it! But you are most welcomed to spend it on me if you want to. Just saying. Remember, if you ever feel like you miss me.. Please come back home. Ha. or to be more specific, come back in May, spend your 20th birthday in your hometown. I love you thisssssssss much! ♥

xxx

22.

Ahoy.

Hello.

Hey.

I just felt like posting about a summary of 2012 so here goes.

My year started off pretty good, with good company around me. As usual I spent my 18th birthday with my closest friends, and I did have a good time although i can't really say what went down. To sum it all up, someone had a little too much to drink and kinda embarrassed themself. And I had a good laugh watching that person. ;) after my birthday all I can remember is that I got a job at Levi's (which didn't last a week.. I think) and then finally, Starbucks called me up and after a few interview sessions, I got the job! Being a barista was one of the highlights of the year, even if I did have to work a lot of graveyard shifts. I went back and forth between working early in the morning and late at night. I did complain a lot, but I did have fun too. It was a good experience; with the manager and partners being extra helpful and nice. I think I worked for a total of 4 months, or less than that. If I could do it all over again, I would, no doubt. :) plus it was great to be able to work with my best friend, Hafreez a.k.a Freeze, as people may know him. I didn't get that much working hours with him but we did get to meet each other more often. Typing all of this out is making me nostalgic, omg. I wish I could turn back time, heh. 2012 brought me closer to people whom I've never talked to before, and also people whom I would have never even thought I would date. LOL.

I can't say that I was heartbroken after my long-term relationship finally ended. And for good, this time. I think i was numbed out till the point that I didn't care what happened anymore. There's only so much hurt that a person can take. Maybe there were more painful times than happy times with us two. But there were some amazing moments in that relationship so I'm not saying that it is all regrets. as the saying goes, 'never regret something that once made you smile' or something like that.. I'll never regret everything that had happened because it led me to where i am today :)

Look at me now, I have someone whom I really love and I am still on talking terms with my ex-beau. In fact, he even said he was happy for me and I felt that it was actually sincere coming from him. And things happened in the past for a reason. I learned from my past and now my present is looking pretty good. But I don't wanna jinx it. And I can't say anything about my future because who knows what the future has in store for us.

I had the best Christmas ever in '12! Even if my oldest brother wasn't back to spend this holiday with us, at least David came back home :) I did some last minute decorations for the Christmas tree on the 24th itself. Well actually it was more like I started decorating that day and finished then as well. Haha, it's not a surprise that i did it at the very last minute because I do tend to procrastinate. It's my best talent. Ha. Anyways, the tree looked amazing *ahem and I was proud of my decorating skills. Christmas is truly one of the best times of the year. Not to mention that Adzul came over to help prepare dinner that night :) what more could I ask for besides family and good food on the eve of Christmas. And I spent the actual day itself with my family, going visiting and stuffing myself with so much good food! Now when I think about it, I get hungry imagining all the dishes. New Year's Eve was fun too, 'cause i got to spend it with my closest friends. We had a gooooood time, like we always do ;) i did last longer than 12 am this time, unlike last year so it was an achievement haha.

Today, on the 22nd of January '13..

I'd like to give a birthday shout out to one of the best guy friends' that I have ever known, Nazrin Shukri! Happy 19th birthday once again, birthday boy. I hope you had a good one in Perak :) thank you, thank you, thank you for all the wonderful things that you have done, such as giving me the cutest kitten ever! I miss my Juno, and I'm sorry he got lost, really I am. I did take care of him and fed him till he got sooo fat, though. Now we're both 19, let's enjoy the last year of being a teenager ya? Don't worry about getting older, you're forever young at heart, okay! Plus you don't look 19, I hope I don't either, cause I don't want to age so fast. Happy birthday again :)

I'll end here. Till the next time..

xxx

Another new beginning?

Hello, hello. I'm not quite sure if anyone would be reading this but I was bored out of my mind and thought to myself, what have I not done in a long time? And blogging was the first thing that came up to my mind. Forgive me for being MIA for the longest time ever.. Maybe a bit too long but hey, don't judge me. I've been too busy living my life, haha. But now there's not any of that 'life' for me to live because I'm stranded on a tiny island with no entertainment at all, except for my phone and laptop that is. My lifesavers. A million thanks to whoever created the Internet because it has helped me to be updated with the life of others not living on this island. Maybe labuan isn't so bad and I'm just exaggerating, but I really do miss my hometown, even if it is just a 40 minutes flight away.

What should I talk about?

Let me start off with my college. To be honest when I applied for matriculation, I didn't think that I would actually get in, and I didn't think that I would actually study here. But beggars can't be choosers, haha. I only have myself to blame because of how I did during my SPM. 

But.. On the brighter side, I have survived for 8 months, and in just a few short months this will all be over. You know what shocks me the most? It's the fact that as much as I want this to end, there's a part of me that doesn't want to leave too. 

I was lucky enough to get 3 amazing roommates that respect each other's privacies & does not stick their noses into other people's business *ahem especially mine. But they have been caring enough too. It's going to be a sad goodbye when we finish our second semester. I have the best classmates, with an exception of a certain someone who left before the mid semester exams in semester one. Now, it's all good.

As for my personal relationships.. 

I met this cheeky guy, um to be precise I've known him since high school but I only got to really know him last year, in 2012. It's not your typical love story where girl meets boy, girl and boy falls in love, and they live happily ever after, bla bla bla. We were just friends at first, and with a twisted turn of events, we got together. I have had the best time of my life ever since. :) I don't really have to get into the details of what brought us together, but I will say that that guy is the love of my life and I wouldn't trade him for the world. So, my amazing boyfriend, if you're reading this.. Thank you for coming into my life and for staying, even when you had so many reasons to leave. It's hard when I am so bipolar all the time and you have to deal with all of me. Despite everything, you still remained. And thank you for spending the day with me on my 19th birthday. You remembered my birthday! Well there isn't a reason for you to forget because my birthday was all I talked about before the actual date, right. And also happy birthday to your mom :) what a coincidence that our birthdays fall on the same date. I love you for all that you are, how good you treat me and for 101 reasons more that I can't think about right now. Ha.

I think it's time for me to end this post, with hopes that there will be more blog postings to come.. Ha. Maybe if I do get bored enough.

xxx